Thursday, August 13, 2009

Going home

Our family made our first trip back home since everything last summer. My anxiety level was at very high levels. When I arrived....everything came rushing back to memories of last summer. It was hard to face it. Here...I can keep from feeling the pain of loss...but was in my face and I had to face it.

I failed to live in the Spirit as I had really hoped I would. I wasn't prayed up or Bible fed like I should have been and I know that had everything to do with it. My flesh overcame me with aggravation, irritation, anxiety and stress.

I wanted to be different, but I didn't take the steps necessary to prepare. I am thankful that my family was understanding and My God is forgiving and gives me a new start. I want a new start. I want to heal from these hurts and pray that God will help me do this. I know that God needs me to move on so I can serve Him and my family like I should. Praying for His healing!

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